Keaku

I have plans for every weekend in the month of October! I love the feeling of knowing where I'm at and what I'm doing especially when I have plenty of plans to look forward to. I'm turning 24 and on Oct. 24th, I'm planning a day out in SF with my family for my birthday. I do miss the city. I feel so alive and cultured when I'm there. I'm loving the diversity, art, and activities. 

Is it love if you can't find any reasons to explain how and why you feel so strongly about someone?

I want to share my plans for every year. some may take a while to accomplish and continue into the year after, but that's ok. I figured this would be a good way to make every year meaningful for me. I'd be blessed to have all my wishes granted.

i want to love and be loved... easily said.

Nothing to do with the music artist, but the fact that I'm leaving for sin city in about an hour with some time to spare on a post. 

I just "aha!"-ed myself today when I was thinking too much about my life and how miserable i think i felt all this time just trying to figure things out. I never knew where to begin with this hunt for the culprit of my personal dilemmas. But you know what? I realized that i sorta just drifted away from my own comfort zone where I was happy and carefree regardless of the shit I was going through. I had the confidence to get through each day on my own. I've been dwelling in the pain i felt in the past not thinking twice about figuring out "why?" for every situation i had to face 4 months ago. I've been hurt, yes I have. But what can i do? the past is history and i chose to constantly change and not relive my unwanted memories- especially for the 4th time. I guess it all started when i was beginning to think that i was getting what i've been praying for and with this at hand, i was also beginning to lose myself in its place. It's like trading spaces, i thought that since someone was coming back to me, that he'd take my place... make me happy, take care of me, etc., but i realized that it shouldn't be this way. aside from what someone gives you, you should take responsibility on your behalf. Don't make expect someone to support you if you can't support yourself because when you lose someone, you're leaving yourself with nothing. 

I remember back in the early 90's when I spent a week at my grandparents' house in Stockton, there was a Michael Jackson marathon running from morning to night. I sat there watching him on MTV for hours until the television overheated! <3 Michael Jackson

Michael Jackson - Ghosts (1997 HDTV) - PART 1/4

Watch all 4 parts.. full video

Transforming cars. Bumble bee should've been a mini cooper ;). Megan fox.

Sometimes I wonder if I have to get used to missing someone infinitely because I can't seem to look forward to the end of it coming soon. I rethink the other options that I have. I could leave anytime, but I dont want all the time I invested on waiting to be wasted. I know for a fact that a time will come-when we will be closer with hardly a breath to miss.

I wish it would come soon